a few mins back while i was watching “before sunset,” it suddenly struck me that i should be writing this post asap. sometimes it’s very important that when ur mind wanders better than a bird, u should follow it with a laptop that has MS office. but my pc has been overused as always leaving inconsiderable amount of charge in it, making me beg my good old friend shaan to give me his MAC. of course i hate using MAC b’coz of my reluctance towards updating on technology. but all this is not important. what is important is this post and the fact that i am writing it. i am 29000 feet above the sea level, flying above international waters with a heart full of happiness. my U S tour is over and i am on my way back home. i ve got the show director G S VIjayan sitting right next to me wondering what i am typing [or he’s probably sleeping, i don’t know] and the most talented sayanora in the next seat glued to some movie playing in Qatar airways. but the world of vision is becoming smaller to me as and when i am writing this and the heart is filled with amazing memories i ve lived for the last forty days.
ever since Karale in 2005, i ve done umpteen number of stage shows in and out of my country, but this is for the first time that a stage tour has left me with so much of hangover and excitement. United states of America was not quite cordial when we arrived last month. there was this hurricane disaster called Irene [i don’t know y storms are named after such beautiful female names]. The first week shows we had at Boston and New York got cancelled because of this beautiful feminine disaster. but truly it was a blessing in disguise. it gave all of us more time to rehearse, more time to get acquainted and more time to be a family. every day of rehearsal made the flow of the show better and crisp. by the time we did our first show in Orlando, all of us were thorough with our parts. after each show, we had this feeling that we were getting better as a group. having a good team is a rarity, but we were lucky to own this rarity. right from, seniors like Rahman kka [actor Rahman] to juniors like me, everyone tried to give their best. but that’s not just the thing that is making me write this post. more than the success of the show, the experience that this period gave my life is making me write this.
the tour bus that we would hop into every weekend would take us to different parts of america. not just america, it even took us to canada. but the beautiful nayagra falls is not even worth mentioning compared to the moments that i had on stage and at the back stage. i ve always been fascinated by back stages. it’s a place which would transform an ordinary man with undeniable passion into an artist of distinction. it’s the magic room which prepares you to go stand in front of thousands of people with a smile and an intention to touch their hearts. If u ask me, i could narrate hundreds of back stage experiences which has enthralled me in my short span of career. it’s the only place in this world where i could meet a shankar mahadevan or an SPB in close proximity, sipping the tea taken from the same flask as me. in this tour, this back stage was the place where i prepared myself to unleash all the madness clogged inside me. i believe, all of us have a lot of madness hidden inside us. that’s y we feel the need to do something adventurous or exciting. for a guy like me, the back stage and the vocal cord helps. the feeling of being ordinary vanishes the moment every artist reaches the back stage. when u pass that door and enter the back stage, everything changes. state of mind, intentions, energy level, paranoia.. everything. all you want to do is go out there and give ur best. Everytime the show was over, we had hundreds of people rushing to the back stage, clicking pictures with every single artist and speaking their heart out about the experience they had.
when we had our final show in houston, an old friend of mine called barath had come to watch our show. i feel really happy when my friends come to see my stage shows. after the show, i got out of the back stage with barath and we were walking towards his car while people going back were screaming “good show” & “come back to houston” and things like that. it’s those moments when u thank god for making all this happen. when we got into the car, barath asked me; “dude, u r touching people’s lives. what more do u want?” i had no answer. i simply smiled. there is no achievement beyond happy human faces, happy human lives. this understanding is definitely going to make my life simpler and my aspirations humbler. i feel that my life has some significance and some purpose in this mighty world of delusions. these forty days have made me a believer. and this belief would take me home to do the things ahead.
feels better.. i would go back and watch the movie now..
[will post this once i am in chennai. 29000 feet above the sea level provide thoughts, but not internet]